“There has to be more to life than this!”
SIMPLY…..MY TRUTH -
I spent 20 years in an abusive toxic relationship, 18 years addicted to drugs, 15 years in and out of prison. I lost everything from my teeth to my children. This after being sexually abused as a child , growing up with an alcoholic father, drug addict sister, in a house full of nasty arguments, bitterness and anger. But im grateful for every minute, it doesn't defy me anymore, but it did make me who I am today. I'm no stranger to trauma. I've lived through the darkness, now it's time for the light. 2 years ago I woke up one morning ( after another full on beating) in a squat with my abusive partner smoking the drugs I had saved from the night before so I wouldn't be poorly. I cried and litteraly said the words out loud" there has to be more to life than this" and I walked out, found the means to buy a train ticket and moved 300 miles away, back to where I grew up. I sought the medication I needed so I wouldn't go into a nasty withdrawal. At 45 I moved back in with my mother. I had made the decision to get clean many times over the years , but once It came from my heart and the intention was pure, the universe slowly started answering my prayers. Looking back I see I'd had a spiritual awakening. The universe put me exactly where I needed to be for this. I live next to a river, im surrounded by mountains and im always in nature, grounding myself. I started doing yoga ( can't tell you why ), I'd only done yoga once before (to get out of a prison cell) but it suddenly appealed to me. I found one that unblocked my chakras and loved it did it every day. Then things started moving faster, I found myself trying meditation, then from that I started doing shadow work. Learning to love myself wasn't easy after all the things I had done through my drug addiction. But im getting there. My children are back in my life, they are my proudest achievements. I now understand the power of words. But even in my darkest days. I was always kind, always caring. More selfish than I care to admit ( when the drugs come into play). But always kind. I realise I had to walk that dark road to see the light as I do now. Thats why im grateful for everything that happened to me. And I learned so many priceless lessons along the way. Thanks for giving me the space to share my little story 🫶🫶🫶🙏✌️💪🥰
SIAN WILLIAMS